Mi Vida♥

2009-10-27T04:12:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone, well its now 4+ in the morning and I am still awake. Oh well I am gonna sleep now. Long day ahead.. Good night all!!

I hate this part right here

2009-10-26T08:47:00.002+08:00

" I can't take it any longer

Thought that we were stronger

All we do is linger

Slipping through my fingers

I don't wanna try now

All that's left's goodbye to

Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here

I just can't take your tears

I hate this part right here "

~I hate this part by PCD

I am currently feeling totally...crushed...

I don't know what to think anymore.. The only questions going through my head is why? Why and MORE Whys.. Oh well, what am I to do? That's life right? Sometimes you just gotta keep getting hurt over and over again till you find the one.. oh well~

I shouldn't have falling in love so fast and hard... Too fast like burning rubber... Oh well..

I despise getting hurt over and over... Maybe I should take a break from the drama's of relationship life...Ergo I don't think I want to be in a relationship anymore...thats all for now...

self reflection

2009-10-24T00:08:00.002+08:00

Sitting here like a fool,
cos I am waiting for a text from you.
Been thinkin about ya the whole day,
wishing I would cross your way.

Today doesn't feel like my day. I have been feeling really really emo the whole day.Please dont ask me anything... Dont feel like it...

A hungry man is an angry man

2009-10-23T10:06:00.002+08:00

Dang, I am sOooOOOoooOOOOoooooOOOOOOO HUNGRY! But I gotta wait till 12pm, still got 2 more hours.Its alright, I can tahan~! Try try try~!

Shall blog again tonight~ CYA~!!

yawn x10000000000000

2009-10-23T02:37:00.002+08:00

Hey all, its currently 2.39 in the morning and I am still awake. WHOOOOHOOOOOOO~
Sorry, feeling crazy as I am really hungry!!!!!!!!!!!!! Guess cos just now(or yesterday), all I ate was two pieces of plain bread and a peanut butter sandwich.. ARGHHH SOoOOOoooo HUNGRY! Nevermind, I shall eat instant noodles in the morning(or later) Currently texting and blogging(like duh) I better learn to start sleeping early soon.

Mainly cos I am starting work next wednesday. Dang I gotta buy quite alot of things for work. Shoes(non canvas), stockings(skin colour, as for my skin, dark stockings), Hair net(for bun), black skirt(those office ladies type and a waterproof eyeliner. I am expected to wear light make-up too.(phew thank God, then I wont look too weird with my hair in a bun.)
Well nothing much. && I think by the time I start working, I wont have enough time to go out already as I am expected to work 45hours a week and 180hours a month..So yeah.. Anyone who wants to ask me out, ask before this wednesday~! *laughs* kidding about the "ask-me-out" thingy. Well, waiting for someone to reply me and waiting for me too feel tired..Which will be pretty soon. So yeah, ergo I shall stop here. CHAO~!

hungry

2009-10-22T08:18:00.002+08:00

A very goodmorning to everyone who is reading this! Well its currently 8.21am. Have been using the laptop for an hour and 20mins. I woke up around 7am. Don't know why but thats the earliest I've woken up since the hols started. Muahahas. Okay all I am currently doing is the usual. Myspace-ing, twitter-ing, facebook-ing and NOOOooooOOOoowww BLOGGING!:)))

Sorry if I sound super crazy right now. Maybe cos I am practically starving while typing this entry :((( I didn't eat much yesterday. All I ate was a bowl of noodles(thanks Felicia~!). Maybe I'll just eat something small just to dilute the acid in my stomach.(whoa Science alert!) Alright then... I shall end here then~!

" Are you really the one? Or you're just another 'busstop'?"

start of something new

2009-10-22T00:03:00.003+08:00

Today was a happy day for me..

Don't ask why cos I'll just end up smiling and start singing to myself.

*giggles* Oh well.Tomorrow I'll be going down to YouthReach to pass A.Lily her going-away present..really hope she likes it.. anyways, thats all I wanna say..

( I'm hungry):((((

I GOT IT!

2009-10-21T11:37:00.002+08:00

Goodmorning everyone~!
GUESS WHAT?!!!!!! I GOT THE WAITRESSING JOB?!!!!! Woohoos~!
I got a job! Finally after all the late nights searching for a job... and now I've got one..

*stands at podium*

I would like to thank my family, Merv and Adi for helping me with my application form(if it weren't for you guys, I would be on it the whole night), Felicia for irritating me(kidding~!) and everyone out there who supported me all the way.. thank you thank you

*waves and blows air kisses*

Ok ok, that was just me being a Diva.Thats Soo~ me. Muahahas So yeah they emailed me and asked when can I work. I then asked if I am able to start work next wednesday, the 28th of oct.So yeah, currently just waiting for their reply.Wish me luck guys!

jobs jobs jobs

2009-10-19T23:43:00.002+08:00

Jobs Jobs Jobs..

Should I work with a friend? Or should I work alone?

But the thing is that I just dislike working with friends. I just don't know why.

I just want to be alone. Okay if anyone want to say that I am emo or something go ahead.

I am not gonna scold you either. Cos thats just who I am.

That is Jenny Lim for you world. The emo girl who loves the company of people but also loathes it too.

Yeah I know I AM weird. But that why people hate me and LOVE me for that.

Alright thats all...

Shall update more tomorrow..

class vid

2009-10-19T04:22:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone!

Its currently 4.20+am in the morning and I have just completed a video for dearest 4T1 '09 graduates. Awwww~ Aint that sweet of me? Yeah I know.

So yeah although its only a few min vid, I took 4 hours to do it..Dang...

Oh well I hope that my dearest classmates( or ex class mates ) love it :)))

OK gotta go, 4.30 already. needa sleep before I turn into a panda!!

Meeting

2009-10-17T23:53:00.001+08:00

Hellooooo Ya'll!

Man, I just realised I sound like a hill billy...

Oh well..

Ok today was alright. Had a meeting at Pasir Ris Beach with the sec3s and alumni.Talked about how we feel about so far that has happened and such. After everything, I think that we should really get to know them better.

Ok nothing much so far.. Don't know what are my plans for tomorrow.. But all I know I am looking for a job.. Now that I am really really free.. So yeah.. and job to intro anyone?

sick and tired

2009-10-17T00:48:00.002+08:00

HELLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOO!

Dang, I am STILL having a flu and my throat still hurts like crazy!!

What should I do what should I do??

OH YEAH!

Today was my Graduation.

Had a great time taking pictures && such.

But now I notice( after looking through all my friend's pics on facebook) that I never fail to look chubby! :((((

hahas nevermind, I shall go jogging! okok

bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

twljrdjflk

2009-10-16T00:29:00.003+08:00

Yours truly is currently listening to one of lullabies from Yiruma, aaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnndddd Guess what????!!! I cant sleep again! Naww I think I will just try to force myself to sleep tonight as;

I am not feeling well
I gotta go school for Graduation
Gotta wake up early to get ready.

Well, I think I should be off then. Nightydoo to all!~

Sick

2009-10-15T11:35:00.002+08:00

Helllo everyone..

well yours truly is not feeling well. Have been sneezing non-stop since last night.

Now my throat hurts really really badly. Like there is a fire burnning in my throat.

Ouch, suck suckishly suck suck! Ok nothing better to say.

I WANNA CELEBRATE HALLOWEEN! Go trick or treating and stuff!!

Argh! I better stop think of sweets... throat still hurts like F***... ouch :'(

morning

2009-10-14T09:30:00.002+08:00

Gooooooooooooooooooooooooooood morning ya'll! Well yours truly is currently at home alone, eating cola mentos on my sister's bed with the laptop on my lap. So did everyone sleep well? As for me I slept like a log..Dang I am missing my LG ice-cream phone. Everyone must be wondering what happened to it huh? Well the night before, I was really really angry about something so I flung my phone to the wall with excessive force and then only the next morning that I realise my phone cant close properly. So yeah. They should really create bullet NO, missile proof phones for people like me. Phones that are totally made of titanium or something.

Okay so I am still lazying around when I have to go out at 10.45. Procastination!!!

Oh well, I gonna get my butt off the bed before I am late. Still gotta put on some eyeliner, do my hair,put on my favourite black converse high-tops.Woohoo~

Ok I gotta get going~ Tatas everyone!

Made

2009-10-13T13:15:00.002+08:00

A place that I once called home doesn't feel like home to me anymore.

Everytime I step into the place, it doesn't feel....right anymore somehow..

Yes I may sound silly and and stupid but this is how I feel..

Okay maybe I should just try to accept the fact that

there are things like this cannot be controlled by us...

Hey Hey ya'll! Yours truly is watching "Made" on MTV. And its sooo cool.. I really wish to go on Made. What I wanna be is secret. Alright I am currently waiting for my mum to come home then we'll go buy shoes for my Grad Night as my previous shoes got really dirty and it was in a really bad condition. Alright then thats all.

Puffy eyed and throat throbbing, signing out!

yawn x10000000000000

2009-10-10T01:00:00.002+08:00

I wish I could have a quinceanera..

Okay if you don't know whats that,

ask me personally or tag in the tag box.

I think I am starting to like the colour pink..(*gasp*)

I MUST be dreaming...

NO BODY pinch me. Thats all for now...

Nightydoo~

(copyrighted from someone)

Just saying how I feel~

2009-10-08T23:38:00.003+08:00

Poetic me expressing anger

Ok I just some stuff to say. I just wanna say that yes things will change.

Whether they will get better or now, I do not know.

Whether things will remain the same just like always, I do not know.

All I know is that I am going to ask many questions regarding the matter and future "matters" as well. && yes I will try to be nice. But I won't promise I'll won't show a fierce front.

As I predict that there may be things that be will brought up tomorrow that I know I just wanna punch a wall nearby.

But of cos I know my ability to sustain my calm is greater than sustaining my anger.

Ok well all I just wanna say, " Life is a battlefield. "

Whacky me being.. whacky!!

Alrighty I just wanted to say, I DYED MY HAIR!! WeeHoo~ Well I dyed my hair a brownish red... Brownish-red ROCKS! At first, I didn't think it would turn out great. But it did! Ok gotta go before I go berserk and ergo breaking my laptop in the process(again). OK chao!!

Halloween Fever

2009-10-07T20:09:00.002+08:00

Hey ya'll! Well I have seen many people on the net( from America and such of cos)

talking about Halloween. Ever wondered what if Singapore celebrated

Halloween for real? Like as in Kids and Teen knocking on people's doors dressed in odd looking costumes saying, "Trick or Treat?" When they really want to say," Give me the candy punk! " OK well just wondering. Alrighty thats all I wanna say for now. Need to do some research then, 'full speed ahead' for tomorrow's math paper. Whats worse is that I gotta to doubly hard as I think I've flunked my math paper1!( I counted the questions I guessed the answer and the questions I actually know how to do. Ergo, I might be sleeping late. Nights Nights.

ihweo'rsklhfilsdk

2009-10-05T23:36:00.002+08:00

Hey People, I just dropped by to say 'Hi'. Feeling sorta tired and lazzy to update...

Soooo yeah... Ok, today's papers were pretty alright I guess. To me it was in between easy and hard. So yeah, thats pretty much it. I'll be getting my ass off bed in the morning probably to practice some math stuff. Ergo, I need to wake up early. Ergo, I need to sleep now. So too all my peeps. Goodnights.

Yay Boo boo sent me a message in FB!! (other than myspace and youtube that is )

NEW BLOG!!

2009-09-27T21:55:00.002+08:00

Hey Hey Hey, if you all noticed, I changed my blogskin once again. I thought that the previous skin wasn't.....really me. So yeah, today basically not much. Well, last night I had this strange dreams. Its those kindda dreams that are just down right strange, weird and just simply impossible. But well, I wish it comes true~ But I know that somehow it won't.. *sigh* oh well.. I will be waiting till that dream really somes true. Try to keep and open mind :)))))))

LOVE YA'LL!!!

Short and sweet

2009-09-27T00:04:00.001+08:00

OK I gotta go sleep soon so I'll just keep this short and sweet. Today, I didn't go out. I just spent the day spring cleaning my entire house and a little of my room. At night baked cookies with sis. It got pretty messy I gotta say :S. Well my bro even took a couple of pics and I'll just upload them tomorrow night or when I have a chance. hmmm can't to think of it, I have been eating alittle more than usual. Fatty piggy me!! I think I'll go jogging in the morning...hmmm...

*shouts across the living room* "Mum! Where are my sweatpants?.."

Yeah ok thats basically it, I will try to update whenever I can. Until then!! :)))))))))))

black out

2009-09-25T16:53:00.002+08:00

I have absolutely nothing to talk about today so I'll just talk about last night.

LAST NIGHT

(10:10pm)

I was feeling sticky so I decided to take a shower. Then when I was showering half way, the light went out. So I shouted asking whoever to turn on the lights thinking that someone must have switched it off by accident. Then I peeped outside realising that the whole house was dark, so I wrapped myself in my towel and walked out. My whole family was trying to find a tourch light. Then I went to my room and found one. Surprisingly, my unit wasn't the only one experiencing the same problem. My neighbours too. So we took out loads of small candles and scented big ones too. Placed them around the house. Then I was scared to continue showering in the dark so I took one big candle and two small ones to the bathroom. Showering with candles was romantic. But at the same time, scary. So I didnt take too long. But then we asked our neighbours if their lights are back on. And they said it was. So my mum made some calls. So for at least an hour or so, we were just sitting around the dinning table with candles around the house and mostly on the dinning table. Romantic huh? *wink wink* Then the dude/electricial guy came. He fixed things already. But then after 5mins, it went off again It kept blacking out every 5mins interval.Sucked so we decided to just not on too many electrical appliances. Which included the AC(air-con) :(((((((((

I didn't have a fan so I decided to sleep in my mum's room. I took my sleeping bag and air pillow into the room and slept on the floor. I hate sleeping in sleeping bags FYI... I would feel extremely claustraphobic.Ewwww~~~

So after half an hour I decided to sleep beside my mum. Didnt sleep too well though.. :(((( Ok thats all. The black out reminded me of the black out that happened on my birthday a few years black. Except that I wasn't only in a towel :S

Until then! Love ya'll!

sleeping early

2009-09-23T21:40:00.003+08:00

Hey Hey Hey all!! Well all I can say is that today in school has been

*stares into space angrily*

Okay I don't want to talk about it.

At PTC, laughed like there aint no tomorrow. All I can say is that I don't know if I'll still laugh the way I did just now next year.Ok thats all I wanna say.

Hey

2009-09-21T20:22:00.003+08:00

Hey ya'll! How was everyone's day? Mine was.... cool. As in the weather I mean. The weather has been very cooling since I woke up at 2.30pm this afternoon! Whoa piggy piggy me huh? Yeah well it was because I slept at 2+ as I was looking at some hip hop dance stuff. I know this isn't like me but yeah I'm starting to become in to dance. But well I got LOADS of work to do. As in slim down.( Too fat you see..) OK lets talk about something else.

&& as usual, I am currently blogging, twittering, myspace-ing, net surfing, facebook-ing and also look at this livejournal webpage I saw on a magazine. && I just gotta say that their clothes and accesories are uh-mazing! I am currently looking at clutches( and so not CRUTCHES ). Thats all for now but I just wanna say I am craving for mentos!!!!!! BTW the website is below. Thanks ya'll!!

http://yannysideup.livejournal.com

Finding a new me?

2009-09-21T01:10:00.004+08:00

Helloooo to ya'll out there! Well today was been a pretty normal day. Oh yeah and I think I found a new look for myself. How cool is that? As I am waiting for the day that I finally get to curl my hair. Some say I am crazy. Why you may ask? Cos, many would kill just to have my straight hair. But here I am crazily wanting to curl my hair badly.

*laughs

Oh well. Anyhoos, I found that I soooo suit the high-pony tail look with thin eye-liner and multiple black elastic bands on my wrists. woooo00000oooo0o0o0o0s~ I guess I might try that look out tomorrow. WeeeeeEEEEEE333333333eeeee~ Sorry I am being alittle crazy today. But it must be a slight sugar rush from all that "mentos" that I ate. Sorta my supper~

~~WHAT I DID TODAY~~

Stayed home
Went Tamp1 with family
Ate Pizza Hut with family
Admired cute waiter with sis( hey, we're girls aren't we? TEEHEES~ btw, his name is DANIL or DANIEL or IDANIL, not sure. DOUBLE TEEHEES~ )
Went Converse
Saw their new hi-cut shoes!!![ They are uh-mazing , to me that is :)))))) ]
Cabbed Home.

Alrighty thats all for now~ TATAS~!

.........I ~~LOVE~~ DESPISE YOU NOW, I NEVER LOVED ~~DESPISED~~ YOU THEN.....

Ed hardy

2009-09-17T01:25:00.003+08:00

I WANT LOADS AND LOADS OF ED HARDY STUFF!! MUAHAHAHAHS!!!

Another sleepless night

2009-09-13T23:57:00.002+08:00

Hellooo to whoever is reading this! Well, is another one of those nights where I totally can't sleep at all. Worse still, my mum is not letting me use the laptop so I am in my living room using the comp with "Powerpuff Girls" playing on the tv. Well Can't sleep and I finally realise that its not cold at night! Whoever said that must be whack!OK thats all!!

FAmily Day

2009-09-13T01:25:00.002+08:00

Hellllooooo to all lovely readers!

Well I am currently watching vids and doing the usual stuff. Blogging, Twitter-ing, myspace-ing and youtube-ing.&& as usual, I can't sleep,,,,,,Yet I mean.

My day was been alright. Went out with my familia in the evening to Far East Plaza. Shopped, window shopped, ate, more window shopped and cabbed home. Fun familia bonding time! Shall do that again!! Ok *pig snort*thats all folks...

I LOVE BOO BOO STEWART && TAYLOR LAUTNER!!!

Yawn Yawn Yawn

2009-09-12T01:18:00.003+08:00

*Yawning*

Hello ya'll! The time is now currently 1.19am. Surprisingly, I am starting to feel tired. If you don't know, now on days I don't sleep around 12 or 1 anymore. Usually its like 2 onwards. The latest was that I didn't even sleep at all. (Whoa, do I sound proud about that or what? ) Well lets not talk about sleepless nights. I wanna "learn" to sleep earlier now due to N's.( How responsible of me )

Okay today was an okay. My plans for tomorrow are simple, just four simple words:
GO OUT WITH MUMSY!!

Ok, thats all for now~ I LOVE BOO BOO STEWART && TAYLOR LAUTNER!! (random much?)

Serenity soothes even the most ferocious of beasts

2009-09-10T22:13:00.003+08:00

Currently yours truly is ; blogging, twitter-ing, facebook-ing, myspace-ing and friendster-ing!! Hey you may think that that is a lot of things to do, well you're wrong. God gave us this unique ability, its called multi-tasking!! Well, mainly cos I am bored. so yeah nothing much about today~ and Btw, I just wanna shout to Charlene and Felicia for the caring words. Thanks loads to both of you and I love both of you to the core!( there there, don't be going around spreading I'm a les and all. Or else I will slap you silly.!)

"When I had climbed the mini stair leading to the upper deck of the bus, I began scanning for an empty. Once I had stopped one, I went and sat down. As I stared out of the window, I started to think of the past, present and the future. Before I knew it, I found that my eyes had closed while day-dreaming. Then I just thought that maybe I was being a little melodramatic . Only then that I realise how chilly it felt. I tried rubbing my hands but somehow it didn't seem to work. I swear that if it was any colder, I could see my breath. ....(to be continued..)"

Random? I know... Until then!!

dont know what to say

2009-09-09T00:20:00.004+08:00

Okay, I don't wanna say too much here. If you are bored, or wanna read something emotional, click this link:

http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.ListAll&friendId=497250110

~Sick of trying,
tired of smiling~

"and waiting for someone..."

2009-09-07T20:33:00.002+08:00

~waiting for someone" are the words he
said, and the moment He said that, I swear my heart broke into millions
of fragments once more. And tears were flowing uncontrollably.. I have not cried
like this since that very sucky day. I broke my promise to myself to never ever
cry again. I know I am being melodramatic, but thats who I fucking am. I am a very emotional girl who HATES showing her emotions to the world that are full of critisims, comments and such.~

Jenny Lim how could you be so fucking stupid?!!! You already knew that He would move on!! You already knew that you are just a past He has LONGGGG forgotten!!!! You are just a freaking piece of broken fragment of His past!!! How could you be so fucking stupid as to have this fucking stupid thinking that He will fall irrevocably in love with you!!!! Why are you SOOOOOOO FUCKING BLIND?!!!! Are you born stupid huh?!!! Jenny Lim, how could you be so stupid, blind and foolish!!!!!!!! HOW CAN YOU BE SOOOO STUPID AND BLIND?!!!!! WHY?!!! Why do you cry over this guy you know whom you can never be called yours once more?!!!! Why???!!!!!!!!!! WHY ARE YOU SOOOOO FUCKING STUPID!!!!!!!!

JENNY LIM IS A FUCKING FOOL! JENNY LIM IS A FUCKING FOOL!

Yiruma

2009-09-06T23:06:00.002+08:00

I simply love love love love Yiruma's instrumental pieces..! I feel that he is just simply genius..! Ok thats about it for music. Well nothing much this weekend. Went out with family, studied abit( I know what you're thinking, Jenny lim studying? Time to buy lottery peeps! ) Today I went Tamp Mall then Tamp1. Went to Popular to see some assessment books for math. I nearly wanted to buy an assessment for 'O' level English.
*laughs*
Well all I wanna know is that I really really wanna buy the book "Breaking Dawn". I am starting to become an avid reader..!( P.S; ONLY to Twilight books.. *wink wink* ) Ok gotta go. Hope you guys like me new playlist!

Get used to it

2009-09-03T14:50:00.002+08:00

I gotta get used to the fact that there won't be a special someone who will be there, to give me a hug and tell me everything is alright when something bad happens.

I gotta get used to the fact that there won't be a special someone who will be there to tell me that I am who I am when someone dismoralises me.

I gotta get used to the fact that that special someone doesn't exist in my life anymore...

But its okay..

Cos I will try to go through life like everything IS okay..

2009-09-01T12:58:00.002+08:00

HEELLLOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok well the time is now 1pm. I have to go down to ptc for math tuition soon. Well today is Teacher's Day..weee~ I already gave my present to Ms Siti already. I got her a mug thats says," Goddess with an attitude. " Totally suits her. I hope she likes it. Oh yeah here was a short concert yesterday outside our class. I took some vids of it except of the dance. I will post them tonight IF I am not busy. Ok thats all for now..

" I just wanna say that I am still learning. I am still learning to be a better person. I am still trying to not be rude. If I were to say things that you guys don't like, just tell me. I want to learn. I AM still learning. If I were to do something that you guys don't like, then tell me. I will accept it with an open mind. All you need to do is tell me. "

2009-08-31T04:38:00.002+08:00

Now is like 4.38am in the morning and I, Jenny Lim, is still not asleep. Oh whats the point, even if I force myself to sleep, I'll only fall asleep at 5 then I have to wake up 15mins later. Might as well stay up. All I can say is that I think this is the latest I have ever stayed up till. Well, can't blame me. I just can't sleep. Dang, I don't wanna get insomnia...

Cant sleep

2009-08-31T03:28:00.002+08:00

Ok its now 3.28 in the morning and I'm still not asleep.. Sorry but I just can't seem to fall asleep.. I think I really am getting insomnia soon. Gosh I hope not, N levels are like just a few days away. oh please oh please I pray I won't get insomnia. At least a fever the most... Ok I am currently making my DIY teachers day card for Ms siti. drawing and such..Ok till then

2009-08-31T01:34:00.004+08:00

Time's now 1++ && yours truly still can't sleep. Wonder why?... I promise that if this keeps up, I will get insomnia REALLY soon. UNLESS I am already suffering from it. Uh oh, not good. Why you may ask, its cos N's are NEXT WEEK! && I promised myself I will force myself to sleep more especially when there is a paper the next day. DIE DIE DIE! I gotta sleep.!!! HELLPPP!!!

chapalang

2009-08-30T23:33:00.005+08:00

TODAY

woke up at 1pm feeling very sickish

stayed at home till 5+++

went TM with mum

bought T'cher's day present

bought Subway(take out)

Typing blog

YESTERDAY

Went to Singapore Science Centre with PTC youths and Aunty Lily. Dont wanna elaborate, shall let the pics and vids do the talking. **CAUTION** Pic and vid quality will be so horrible it will harm some people's eyes!!** Just kidding~

Skeleton(random)

Ok thats all for Science Centre. Well I'm now currently writing down the chords for 'One more ment' for tomorrow's teacher's day performance in class. But also trying to make a teacher's day card for Ms siti. LOVE HER SO MUCH! hahas well, thats all for now!

Tears Fest

2009-08-28T23:22:00.002+08:00

Today has been alright~ But I just wanna bring up something from what I've observed from today. After what I've seen, heard and felt, I can say that the girls in our class are slowly beginning to get closer. Maybe because we are starting to share feelings? Hahas all I can say is that there was alot of crying. (scene; after school, at the girls toilet )At first Carin and Afiqah were crying cos of something[ nothing concerning anything you all should ] then Felicia, Leona, Tinyam, Siti,Natalie, Shini and a few went to comfort them girls.(sorry if I forgot , I have a memo of a goldfish!) So then while I was walking to the toilet, Effika told me everyone was crying in the toilet. So I decided to see how bad was it. So, being the so called happy go lucky me went in a saw that nearly 3/4 of them were sitting on the floor crying. So I went in hurriedly and ask what happened. Then Leona grabbed my hand and said, " Jen, sorry if I have not been a good friend..." Worse was that as she was saying that, tears were swelling up in her eyes. As I saw that, I myself started to tear! OMG! I promised myself not cry after that time... But it didn't last long.. OMG I cried.... LEONA BTE MOHD SOFI YOU MADE ME CRY!!!! Lol Kidding well I wanna sleep now, tired...PIGGY ME! okok Just wanna say I LOVE ALL THE GIRLS IN MY CLASS and maybe some of the guys... ok NIGHTS!

Physically and mentally tired

2009-08-26T18:55:00.002+08:00

Currently lying on my bed feeling very sick and super tired. While I was on my way home, I felt super dizzy and I just felt like fainting but I got no choice but to tahan. So here I am lying on the bed covering myself with the covers, wrapped like a caterpillar... I don't think I will be sleeping after 9pm today.I really truly need the sleep. Only just now when Felicia corrected me that I have not been sleeping well these past few WEEKS and not days.. Oppsy, used to saying days that I don't even realise that a few weeks had already passed. SO yeah, I got nothing much to say, all I know is that I am now Physically, mentally and spiritually exhausted...Thats all I can say... Peace out!

Humans

2009-08-25T23:15:00.003+08:00

Us HUMANS are judgemental and never seem to be satisfied. . . Don't you think so? EVERYONE goes for looks right? Okay okay you may be saying, "No, I don't. Jenny is talking crap." Well a trust me everyone will judge a person by looks. Sometimes, how the person dress, acts or even sometimes walk, can attract you in a way. BUT to some, they REALLY go for looks like REALLY go for looks. Some get attracted to a person of another gender just because he or she has BIG biceps, or she has a body like an "8"...( if you know what I mean. ) Us humans are like that. Thats our nature. 2nd point is that we never seem to be satisfied. Lets say someone bought an ornament,( WTF? an ornament? thats the best example you can give? I give you a big LOL!) and then walks out of the shop. But when the person brings it home and looks at it for a week or so, he or she will start to think,

"Actually this ornament isn't that nice. I should have bought the other one or a much better looking one."

Don't you think so, all of us are like that. We NEVER seem to be satisfied. When we are given a 100years to live, we want to die faster. But when it gets cut short, we complain why is it so. Don't you agree.??

I don't know why but I just feel like saying this.. Just what I observe over God knows how long! OK Chao!

WHY WHY WHY!!!

2009-08-23T19:29:00.002+08:00

Why can't I forget you?! I try not to thing of you but somehow you are ALWAYS there! Why can't I just forget the fact that we were ever together?!! Why can't I seem to erase all those now damned memories that mean anything anymore?!! Why?!! I am trying my F**KING best to forget you, but nothing seems to F**KING work!!! Why?!!! I am TRYING to lie to myself saying, that I wasn't good enough! I am TRYING to lie to myself that you had a VERY goood reasonII don't wanna cry... I don't wanna cry because of this... I don't wanna cry because of you!..

IF you don't wish to read any emo stuff then PLEASEEEE avoid highlighting the above....

teehees~

2009-08-21T22:44:00.002+08:00

Time now is only 10.50pm. I emphasise on the ONLY. Cos to me 10.50pm is like 8pm to many! Teehees~ OK lets talk about my day. Today was the last day of prelims! Today's paper was Science.( Ah science, a nice way to end of the last day of prelims ) After school, headed straight home. I promised myself when I woke up this morning that in the afternoon I'll take a nap. I have not been sleeping well lately.( Since when do I ever?) Been sleeping later than 1+ everyday. If I'm lucky, 12+. I am gonna look worse than a panda soon!( Hell yeah, like a panda with the opposite colors ) Its ok, I will get a well deserved rest after N's.( What?! After N's? By then I will look worse than a panda! Awww man~ ) Ok gonna stop here, nothing much to say...

He is now online. Why is that whenever I think of him, see his name, hear his name or even see someone who looks like him, my mind will automaticly say," Ok..back to to square1....*sigh*" Why Why Why?...

"Why is it so freaking hard to forget you? Everywhere I turn, I seem to see your face! Why? I am trying my best, trying my hardest to forget you. Sick and tired of wearing a mask and pretending...Just sick of it..."

Screw EBS

2009-08-20T23:56:00.002+08:00

Had EBS( Elements of Business Skills) and CPA (Computer Applications) prac. today. All I can say is that I think I'll pass(border line) for CPA but as for EBS, I think I'm gonna get a serious a55 woopin' from Ms Shiow man. We were supposed to do a 4 days Itinerary and a letter. OMIGUMMY I finished till day 2. So dead~ I was really killing myself mentally when I left the lab. So terribly disappointed. Cos for EBS paper1 I didn't know how to do much.. So yeah~ There goes my dream of working in the hospitality industry~ LOLS after CPA, I still had alot of time so I opened CorelDraw( a software ) and started drawing PIGUINE!!( Half pig, half penguine!! His parents met in Vegas. HAHAHS!) ok thats all for now, been feeling horrendously tired these few days. . .I need sleeping pills man! But well the doctor thinks I am still young. Next time I shall tell him I am not young as whenever its gonna rain, my back will hurt. So my friends call me old.(maybe cos I'm the oldest among those from my batch in PTC) hahas Jenny Lim Dao Ming is OLD!!!! (Old Little Darling) random much? okok night

Stupid excuses

2009-08-19T19:43:00.003+08:00

I just freakin' hate stupid excuses...Somehow, I don't believe that what you said was true... Somehow there are many loop holes that you didn't cover up properly.. I don't know la, you can now go do whatever you want la huh? Smoke till you are happy huh?! Do whatever your fickled mind tells you to do..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You know what, thanks for "everything".....The pain, the hurt, the sleepless nights were like cherries on a sundae. Thanks for EVRYTHING!!!!!!!!

HAPPY B-DAY FEL!

2009-08-17T23:21:00.006+08:00

Just wanna start of by saying a very big HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FELICIA TINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! Hahas finally you are as old as me.!! *evil laughter* Well we gave Felicia a surprise by buying a cake and surprising her in the canteen. Many were caked on the face too! Hahas fun times, fun times. After school, went home to change then met Fel and Tinyam at PTC. then we head out way to Tamp. Mall. We were waiting for the rest outside Seoul(SIOL) Garden.*blabber crap* Then we went to the arcade, we saw this man who had about $2,900++ in his Tapz card or whatever Timezone card. He was playing this big big big big big sweet catching machine. He managed to gather TONNES TONNES of sweets. I was thinking to myself," Is this dude stocking up for Halloween or something.?" So yeah.. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH... Then when everyone had arrived, we were crapping like crazy. Here are some vids and pics. Once again, sorry for the atrocious pic quality~

Tinyam && Charlotte;)

Charlene(:

Lol?

Shini and Charlene

Tinyam and Charlotte

Yummy! Hot dogs!!!! >.<

Today Aunty Lily had a private chat with me, we talked about some stuff and she asked me if IT is effecting studies after what happen nearly a month ago, and she also asked if this is really how I feel right now and such... I just got one question, do I really hide my feelings very well?

Day out with hong hong!

2009-08-15T22:53:00.006+08:00

Hellooo dudes and dudettes! Today, yours truly went out with Yi Hong ( ex-sakura college). But I was supposed to meet him at 1 pm at Dhouby Ghout MRT station, and in the end I woke up 12.44pm this afternoon! So I quickly messaged him telling him I would be late. So by the time we met, it was about 3 in the afternoon. (sorry hong hong) So he had already bought the ticks. After that we went to Yoshinoya. Then we just walked around Plaza Sing till it was time to proceed to the Cinema. On the last floor, there is this very interesting shop(CAESARS). It sells authentic guns and samurai swords. I swear its ALL real! They were all so cool! If only they allowed me to take some pics. *puppy pout* Well there were a couple more interesting shops beside it. There was this shop that sold toys and stuff. but not normal toys, there were some helmets of Dar Vader(from Star Wars), Iron man and a few figurines. It was cool. And there were also a few posters sold. There was one Twilight poster but it didnt have Jacob in it, Sad. So after walking around for more than 2 hours, we proceeded to the cinema for our movie. Today we watched, "OPRHAN." Its a thriller show about this orphan. If you yes you sir or ma'am are not afraid of gore and don't mind the "f" word to be said in movies, then this is the show for you. **WARNING** There are a few paintings of nudity.** YOU were warned. So it was okay I guess. I got freaked out a whole lot of times but for YiHong, it was like watching care bears! hahas kidding. So after that I went home. I thought about of alot of things while on my way home. thats all. here are the pics from today. sorry for the atrocious pic quality..

Sad

2009-08-14T23:19:00.003+08:00

I just saw him online. When I saw his DN (display name), I felt like crying. I don't know why. It was on the verge of breaking down I swear. Cos it said something like this," Family OR Girlfriend? Well as for me I will choose my family so I am sorry." I am trying not be so lamentable once more, trying not to cry over these kind of things anymore. Trying not to be sad over stupid things anymore. Trying to put on a brave front infront of friends and family to show that I'm alright....Though I truly am not.... I dont know what to do...

blah blah blah

2009-08-14T22:53:00.002+08:00

The time now is 10.59pm. Have been using the comp since I came home right after school. Today has been a pretty good day I guess. In school, had pe. Played softball(woohoos~!) But here's the twist, there weren't much people who wanted to play today so Mr Ng decided to have a class vs class softball match.( 4T1 vs 4E6 ) So on our team there were 9 people. But on the opposing team, there were much more than 15 people.(whoa, unfair much?) But we didn't care. I can say that I am very proud of those who played softball today. Cos;
1. we had fun
2. we played like real sports man
3. we even cheered for the other team members
Everyone was in the mood. Those playing for 4t1 were, Jermyn, Carin, Sharul, Afiqah, Rifqi, Siti, Alger,Zhaireel and I. Both teams took turn to pitch and catch. Well as for me, I skidded a few times on the grass but as always, Jermyn would slide like a bowling bowl aiming for bowling pins.! (no offence Jerm) After an hour, our class won. Then we ALL shook hands with the 4e6 team players hands as a sign that it was a good game. I was happy that we won, but mostly cos everyone did their best and showed good sportsmanship~! Mr Ng himself was also proud of us. Wish that the next time, our WHOLE class could play. Now, THAT would be fun=)

This is Chapter 5,
your voice, your smile, its what keeps me alive~

YAY

2009-08-12T23:51:00.001+08:00

Yay I got my phone back from repairs!!

woohoos~!

This is chapter 4,

I want to be your friend and more..

yawns

2009-08-11T23:53:00.002+08:00

Ok it is currently 11.53pm... And I'm feeling utterly poofed out after a long.. Maybe its because I didn't sleep well last night. Dang, I hope those sleepless nights will NOT come back. I miss sleeping like a pig! ^(00)^ Ok well all I can say is that school has been alright I guess. After school, went for an hours of PC(aka detention) then I made my way to PTC for math tuition with uncle Philip. After math had science. I swear, I'm gonna have a sore throat tomorrow after eating all those junk food today during science. Honestly I have not eaten that much junk food in ages. *laughs to self* Ain't that good? LOL, ok well now I'm downloading Sequel2( A music software that enables you to create your own music without the use of instruments. ) && also waiting for my uniform to dry. (dumbo me poured the detergent in and everything BUT stupidly forgot to press the start button.) Oh my oh my am I smart or what? Well so I am currently lethargically infront of the comp waiting for Sequel to finish download after 2 hours. I think I am going to fall asleep on the lap top soon. Ok well until the next time.!

This is Chapter 3,

do you still think of me?

Hurray for me!

2009-08-11T00:09:00.005+08:00

Today has been a pretty boring day. Maybe because I spent the whole day at home.Yeah well I basically spent the whole day in my room using the laptop. I looked up vids and tabs for "Dumb Reminders" by No use for a name and "Whats My Age Again?" by blink 182. Mainly its because I've been yearning to learn those 2 songs for quite a long time now but just didnt have the time. I didnt learn much of those too, but I did manage to learn the intro, the riff and a little bit of the chorus for "whats my age again". Or I better end all the guitar talk before I bore all readers to sleep.Well just a few mins ago I was doing some last min homework.[ Darn this thing called procastination..!] Can't help it, I've been suffering othis "illness" since I was in primary school.. *laughs head off*.. Well nothing much to talk about, all I know is that I'm gonnna get a whole lot scolding from Ms Toh[ Form Teacher ] tomorrow morning.. *praying silently* I pray she is done with something like amnesia or something tomorrow:-S. And other then that, I would really like to thank those who asked if I was ok and everything,Thanks guys. I REALLY really appreciate it. Thanks for all the concern from all my lovable friends!!

Yeah I agree its hard cos YOU keep appearing in my mind and everywhere I go, you're all that I see. I'm trying my hardest to forget you but somehow I know its not gonna be easy..

{ Words Learnt today; lethargic, mediocre }

This is Chapter 2,
I thought of it as I was thinkin of you~

National Day~

2009-08-09T22:16:00.004+08:00

My day has been pretty alright... Started the day lazily.. Then in the afternoon went to Francis's 15th Birthday BBQ at Pasir Ris Park. At fun with the all the girls. Talked and talked and crapped and crapped. Except for the fact that while I was in the sea and I didnt know that there was a big rock beside and my toe scraped on the thing while I was walking. I didnt even know till I came out of the water and saw that my big toe was bleeding. So, the kind and sweet sec2 girls accompanied me to the toilet to clean(aka wash it) As I was washing my wound, there was this lady who noticed my bleeding fat toe and ask me if I had a handiplast. I didn't have one so I just shook my head then she said that she had one and ask me to wait there.When she came back, she handed me a Mickey Mouse plaster.It was blue in colour. It was really cute. After that, we went back and saw that Tin Yam had arrived. So we chatted and talked till dusk. Had fun talking then it was time to go home as I felt tired.(skip the boring stuff) Then after Felicia had walked home and I was alone at the busstop,I teared. Dont ask why. OK gotta go. I wanna watch "300" before it finishes.

♥Hope that you get well soon

Happy 15th Birthday Francis..!

Happy 44th Birthday Singapore..!

Taylor Lautner is SOOOO hot.

2009-08-07T23:20:00.004+08:00

Hey Hey Hey, well my day has been pretty cool. I went to watch "Up" with Felicia and TinYam. I really had fun. And the movie was hilarious.! Everyone should watch it.(unless you aint a cartoon kindda person) But it was REALLY REALLY funny. Thats all I wanna say as I'm feeling pretty tired. Well I just wanna say that TAYLOR LAUTNER IS SOOOOOO HOT!! && I mean Hot with a capital H! hahash well here are some pics of him...

Cute huh? Well thats all for tonight~

This is what I call Chapter1,
because the story has just begun~

Trying to let go~

2009-08-03T23:37:00.002+08:00

Today is a Monday. Monday blues + depression = quintuple the sucky-ness. Nothing much today. School was alright I guess. Spent the first half of the morning being emo and trying not to cry in class. Although I kept telling them not to worry that I won't cry as my eyes are too tired to cry.(blood might come out instead of tears, kidding peeps) But then when it was recess, I was starting to feel better a little bit but not really. Just trying to put a brave front. . .Don't like to seem weak infront of friends. . . ok lets skip all the emo-ness. Then went to ptc to have English tuition with dearest Stephanie. After tuition, went to Loyang Point with Fel. But throughout the whole thing I was giving a sad front. I'm so sorry, but the whole day of trying to smile was making my heavy chubby cheeks feel tired.(as if.) Fel was trying to make me smile and everything but somehow I was just to upset. Yeah then came home feeling tired.( but not tired at all now. I think I'm gonna get insomnia soon.) Then talked to someone. We were on the same boat. I comforted him, he comforted me.( friends only please) All I can say is that after counselling him, I somehow felt better. But still somehow the same. I dont know but I think some thing must seriously wrong with me. Someone kill me please? Okok I shall not be so emo, or else I will go back to the old me.(the wrist slashing and excessive panadol eating me.) Which was of cos totally stupid. I admit I wanted to do all of them over the weekend but somehow I managed to restrain myself from doing so. Ok just wanna say thanks to all my friends for comforting me. LOVE YOU GUYS(GIRLS) TONNES!!!

I Hate this part right here`

2009-08-02T23:36:00.004+08:00

Currently 11.36pm at night, and I am still not a single bit tired.(why am I not surprise. . .) Although I slept at 4am in the morning, I am still not tired. I do yawn from time to time but whenever its my bedtime, I just wanna "ton" the whole night. . .All I can say is that I spent the whole morning and afternoon and a little bit of the evening crying and sleeping.(like a baby.) I just don't know what to say la. Just that... Yeah..... Well I dont have much to talk about... Shall end here.... I'll just eat a few caplets of panadols then, I'll force myself to sleep. . .I miss my phone... But most importantly. . . . . . .I miss him. . . .

*~ I guess that all the times we spent
together are just all a distant memory. . .
I just wanna say. . . .I'm sorry and. . . .
I miss you ~*

Its official, my life sucks badly.

2009-08-01T23:39:00.004+08:00

I guess you life will not be better without me in your life. . . This word "sorry" is just a word. Do you think it will all be better once you apologise. . . Not anymore. . . Whats the point of scolding yourself? It won't make everything get back to what happen a year ago. . . Nothing you say or do will make anything better. . . Whats done is done. . .Nothing or no one can change it. . . You said you were stupid. Instead, I just told you that you are the smart one. . .You chose your family over me. . . While I am the foolish one who chose you and put all my hopes on you. . .&& that was the most foolish thing to do cos I know that this day would come. . . I was foolish. . .You are the smart one. . . && now I'm the one stuck in an abyss of anguish. . .I am the foolish one. . .

sick and tired...

2009-08-01T10:32:00.004+08:00

Why did you have to go and do it?!..... You told me NOT to do it then YOU went and do it yourself.... Did you even freaking think before you did that? Huh? Did you? Did you even think how I would feel? Did you even how I would react?... But no~ You just went and do it anyways.. You kept saying that I was selfish.. So who is the selfish one now huh? How could you be soooo stupid! You know what? I'm freaking freaking sick and tired of crying and crying over things you do that makes me feel useless or disappointed.. I'm sick and tired of crying over YOUR mistakes...time and time again...sick and tired....

Just wanna say

2009-07-29T21:58:00.004+08:00

So many things are currently going through my mind,

but honestly these are the same things

I think everyday for a year plus.

I know its stupid but I'm just afraid of

alot of things. Not afraid of things like

insects and such but of losing someone..

What if that particular person leaves just like that

for another person cause of looks?

I swear....................

I'll cry...........

Dont wanna care anymore

2009-07-22T23:41:00.005+08:00

Okay serious I'm just gonna say it, I don't really care anymore. I'm sick and tired or every little fight, quarrel and whatever such .. C'mon man, just have this thinking, just 3 more months and no one has to see my fugly and unglam face right? Just have that thinking and everything will be fine~ Cos ya know what? I don't really wanna care anymore. I just wanna go back my stupid self when I didn't care about all this little little things and get angry just because I got stared at or blahblahblah... I just wish I could go back to the way I was when I just kept to myself and shut my stupid mouth. Jenny, why can't you just change and NOT care about those stupid little things that you get angry about.. You're wasting your 10,000 blood cells by getting angry over small matters that the world don't give a whoop about. Yeah I am so uncaring, I only care about what I think and not what other people think. Yeah Jenny, just do the world a favour and shut up ya know? It will do the world good.. and if anyone thinks I am talking about anyone, I'm not...its all me...

Trying to do the impossible

2009-07-22T23:12:00.004+08:00

Trying to do the impossible

Ok its official, the computer really really hates me..! So does MSN, FB and blogger.. Yeaps. My msn keeps disconnecting, FB takes at least 10mins to go to another web page and blogger just doesn't auto save my entries.. Yeah sucks.. But hey, the world and life is unfair right? Its just that one has to do something to make it seem fair.

During NT elective, we created our own rhythm using Sequel by Steinburg. Its a very good software. I should download it one day if my comp allows me to..

Alright, yours truly is going to head to bed now.. Feeling damn tired after today....

Stupidity CAN kill

2009-07-20T14:06:00.005+08:00

I accidently deleted my old blog so I decided to create a new one.. But I managed to find my old blogskin! WooHoo~! Sadly gotta slowly link all my friends blog once more..OMG, back to square one~

OXOXOX

Mi Vida♥

I hate this part right here

self reflection

A hungry man is an angry man

yawn x10000000000000

hungry

start of something new

I GOT IT!

jobs jobs jobs

class vid

Meeting

sick and tired

twljrdjflk

Sick

morning

Made

yawn x10000000000000

Just saying how I feel~

Halloween Fever

ihweo'rsklhfilsdk

NEW BLOG!!

Short and sweet

black out

sleeping early

Hey

Finding a new me?

Ed hardy

Another sleepless night

FAmily Day

Yawn Yawn Yawn

Serenity soothes even the most ferocious of beasts

dont know what to say

"and waiting for someone..."

Yiruma

Get used to it

Cant sleep

chapalang

Tears Fest

Physically and mentally tired

Humans

WHY WHY WHY!!!

teehees~

Screw EBS

Stupid excuses

HAPPY B-DAY FEL!

Day out with hong hong!

Sad

blah blah blah

YAY

*yawns*

Hurray for me!

National Day~

Taylor Lautner is SOOOO hot.

Trying to let go~

I Hate this part right here`

Its official, my life sucks badly.

sick and tired...

Just wanna say

Dont wanna care anymore

Trying to do the impossible

Stupidity CAN kill

yawns